The hardest part has been weight gain and extreme hunger. Now I weight even more than I did before my ed and it seems like i'm still gaining, all though it's not as much as before.
The thing is I recently started to allow myself to eat more sugar. In the beginning I just followed my extreme hunger by eating "clean". It could be like 10 000 calories of just "healthy" food but I want to eat what ever I want so I started to break that habbit and allow myself everything. The problem is that now, that's like all I want. I only crave ice cream, cookies and so on, like obsessed. I eat a big breakfast, lunch but than I still want a pit of icecream, two chokolatebars and 5 five cookies afterwards like today. This scares me. I wanna be able to eat like a normal person and I really don't wanna gain more.
Should I keep doing this and trust my body will make this end by itself? What are your opinions?
My therapft don't want me to gain more either.