I'm glad the water retention has decreased a bit
I many times experienced a loss of water after eating more than I usually did, so more food definitely helped me.
So glad to hear that the B/P cycles have stopped! It must feel nice to not have to deal with that! And yes, is it definitely because you are eating more.
Enjoy these days where you feel a bit more on top of things
You deserve to feel nice, but as you said, don't put your guard down. I'm getting excited about how well you reflect around your situation now
Every recovery is different, so comparing yours with mine may be difficult. But I can tell you anyways just to get a clue. I increased quite fast, but it didn't cause me to get ill. I had problems digesting the food, but after a couple of months it was better. During restriction a had really bad cramping in my legs, thighs and butt so I was afraid to move my body because it hurt so much. At some point I really thought I was going to die because I imagined my heart would start to cramp. All of this went away after 2-3 weeks eating the minimums. I also got really bad hormone fluctuations which caused my mood to be very bad for a period. It also led to bad skin and hot/cold sensations in my body. All of the hormonal signs were gone after 3-4 months in recovery. I'm so happy my skin is back to normal. My sex drive also came back at this point which my boyfriend was quite happy about
I have been on birth control pill all along so I'm not sure about my period, but according to the other hormone signs from my body I think it's back to normal now. I had intermediate bleeding a lot during restriction, but now it's regular again (it was like the pills weren't working correctly during restriction).
I think I have gained about 10 kg and it doesn't seem to increase that much anymore so I think this is how my body should be. The funny thing is that people haven't really noticed anything (they didn't notice when I lost the weight either) I think it's because people just see ME. They may see that I look "sick" or tired but they don't focus on the weight. Some people have noticed, of course, but the comment I've been getting the most is how clear my eyes look compared to then. As if I actually pay attention to life again. I actually laugh when I laugh and smile when I smile. For me it's actually such a great feeling to actually experience life again, and people can see that.
The worst part in recovery was when people gave me compliments on how I looked because my mind would instantly twist the positive feedback into "I can't gain anymore now because people think I look good now". But that's bullshit and I got angry because I had to struggle with convincing myself of that every time I got a comment like that. If I were you, I would prepare a phrase like "Please don't give me any comments on my appearance until I say otherwise, because I simply can't understand the meaning of them right now". It's better to say this instead of getting angry or even worse - start to believe that you should stop gaining.
In general, recovery is tough, but it's manageable if you focus on doing what you need to do right now. Be open with people a much as you can, because it's amazing how much people really care if they just know how to react. I told everyone about my struggles, although not always in detail, and I told people what I was expecting of them. Sometimes I would say "I just want a hug" and sometimes I wanted to talk or cry. The simple phrase "there is nothing you can do besides telling me that everything will be okay" can be good for someone to hear because they know how to act.
I hope I answered the way you wanted