I need your help. I think I've come to the point where I have to decide whether I want to live with my ED or without. I am constantly triggered for a few days (and I've never been someone who's easily triggered) plus I have some kind of feeling that everyone is relapsing right now? Everywhere I look, relapse, relapse, relapse... xy lost weight, z can't deal with this anymore, ... I think you understand me.
My body image gets worse, too. I wish I'd be thinner because everyone loses weight and I don't (even though I don't eat the minimums anymore, let's say TW around 2000 - 2300 TW END). I feel like a failure right now.
What I just described is the "bad" side of myself. On the other hand, I don't want to relapse. I don't want someone to worry about me, and I don't want to go back to the disordered eating. I love(d) the life I have now (let's say - most of it) but the problem is, the issue what triggered my ED (family problems) is still there and it's a matter of time how long it'll be there...
Anyways, my question is - how can I prevent that relapse? I know this sounds weird but are there any coping skills I have to know? Anything I can do so that I don't relapse? I just don't want to. I don't want to lose the happiness I discovered.
(If any of above is triggering - just tell me, I'll delete it and I'm very sorry!)
Sorry if there are lots of mistakes - my head's a mess.